I lost my first born 11/5/2015 at the age of 2 in a car accident. And know all too well what you are going through. It is the testament of Christ that pulls us through. The human psyche was not built to deal with tragedy such as this.
No matter what, you have to find the things that love you, run to them. There's an old saying.That which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I don't believe that. I think the things that try to kill you make you angry and sad.
Strength comes from the good things…
our lord and savior Jesus Christ, our family, our friends, the satisfaction of hard work. Those are the things that will keep you whole. Those are the things to hold on to when you're broken.
for anyone who is suffering, no matter what it is from, I pray the Holy Spirit invades your hearts and helps fill the holes you are feeling.