I am deeply sorry for your loss. I also feel the pain of a lost loved one. On Jan 27 COVID took my mom. She was my rock, best friend as well as my hunting buddy. She always looked forward to viewing the new trail pictures and was always beside the phone waiting for me to tell her that I had gotten a deer. We as a group are here for you buddy.I'm not saying this to get attention, but to show you guys, there is hope when things get rough.... cause, they will. We have a great community here and support is always helpful.
May11th @ 0615 I was driving out to the range to meet a friend to shoot. I had just left the house 10 minutes prior, told the wife I loved her and handed her a protein shake on the couch(she was big into crossfit). Got down the road and she calls saying something is really wrong in her head ... we prayed on the phone... she said "I'm dying" and she dropped the phone. I got home about a minute later to find her convulsing. Called 911 and sat in the hospital with her for 5 days till I had to disconnect her from lifesupport on May 15th. She had a pontine stroke which isn't good and she never woke up.
A lot went on in those 5 days, but it would make the post a few pages. She was a christian and loved God. I was a "christian" but not where I should have been. Thru those 12 weeks till now, I have been broken and had all sorts of thoughts because I loved her more than anything. God took me from a very dark place to wanting to bless others and help them thru this kind of junk. Point is, when you hit your breaking point, which I definitely did, God loves you. I'm here if anyone is having suicidal thoughts or whatever.View attachment 206116