I’m sorry to hear of your troubles in life, we all go through similar things. I truly believe our time on this world is spent proving we are worthy for the next hang in there bud ,and reloading is definitely therapy of sorts for myself as well.Been through a ton of rough stuff in life; loss of money, status, loved ones...but no matter how bad it gets pumping out rounds in the armory helps bring balance.
I'm perhaps not the deep and meaningful type because we have all seen or experienced bad situations. I don't know you but I've been there for my friends, I've seen no end of all sorts of bad experiences go on around me in my small group of friends. It sucks no end and I might be bitter and twisted about many things I see I'm lucky in many other ways.I think it gives me the feeling I have absolute control over something and make progress when in other areas in life I feel like a leaf on the wind.
My reloading bench is under a loft in my shed. There is a square of carpet there that my dog uses when she sits with me.I walk in my gun room, close the door and begin my loads. Very peaceful and to me very relaxing. Well, the dog‘s snoring at my feet is a bit of a distraction!
Only difference here for me Red is I do have a tv on for white noise and sometimes a movie I’ve never seen before. It’s an old 12” square screen black and white that I attached some sorts of antenna box up to and it pulls in Grit TV. I never ever switch channels on itI have my "gun room" in what was once a bedroom. I can shut the door and clean guns, reload or sometimes just sit. No smoking, no TV, no radio or news. Just prep brass and reload, or enjoy the firearms. Yes, that is therapy. And as CBH Australia said followed by "Group therapy" at the range.
I have a “Jambox” from 1990 I listen to. LolOnly difference here for me Red is I do have a tv on for white noise and sometimes a movie I’ve never seen before. It’s an old 12” square screen black and white that I attached some sorts of antenna box up to and it pulls in Grit TV. I never ever switch channels on it