I'm very, very sorry to hear of your addiction. As evidenced by many many posts on this site there is no cure or even much of an attempt to control this addiction. Many show up here, hang around a while, learn some stuff and the condition only worsens.
On the plus side I feel quite strongly that this is one of the few addictions that leads to a much longer meaningful life.
No matter how today goes there is always that dream in the back of your mind that keeps ya going.
There is only one evil presence that universally adversely continually working against use. There's an old time song about it. Something like "They call the wind Mariah.
More like Pariah! or piranha of PITA........
You have chosen a cartridge with will serve you well.
Learn and enjoy.